Find Your Quiet Under the Chaos

“What is sleep?” this is something I say to myself every day when I get up in the morning to a list of shit that has to get done by the end of the day. Every month I write in my planner everything I have to do for the month, regular everyday things like birthday parties, doctors appointments, exams, homework, etc. While I was writing in my monthly planner getting things in order for the month of November (hey fall!) I started  to feel overwhelmed with everything that had to be done. I’m a part time student and I work two jobs during the week. When I’m not doing homework, or at work, all my attention goes to my little one, so making time to just be quiet and to sit still seems like a distant memory. Sometimes I start to feel like I’m just going through the motions of life but not necessarily enjoying it to it’s full potential. I asked myself, “When are you going to take time to do something you’ve been wanting to do for yourself?”. Sometimes you can get so easily caught up in life stressors we tend to forget to take better care of our selves (whether that’s mentally, spiritually, emotionally, etc.). 

I used to think that being alone and having time to just “be” did not have to be a priority, I was 1000% wrong. How can you really advocate for self-love and neglect yourself all at the same time? I knew that I was starting to get so caught up in the hustle and forgetting to check in on myself and take a minute to recharge. When I first became a mom it really used to make my skin crawl when someone would say to me “say goodbye to your social life” or “you’ll never be able to do that ever again now that you are a mom” as if having a child means you have to be bummed down and neglect your own needs to qualify as a good parent. The only time to yourself should not be limited to when you have two minutes to yourself in the bathroom. The idea that in order to be a worthy mother you neglect your own needs is old and tired. I  used to think that if I wasn’t doing something that didn’t benefit my child then it was a waste of time and if I did, I was lacking in the parenting department. Me time is vital, whether that’s sitting in complete silence or taking a day trip with your best friend just to get away, do it. It’s the start of a new month so let’s make time for ourselves even in the midst of chaos, find your peace. 

xoxo, Keinan